Ahh so its been about nearly a month since I've last posted something on here. I'm slacking. I apologise i'm sorry. Anyway this post is about Love, wedding dresses and non existence. The reason why i titled this is because i have three things to talk about within this post which may take some time in explaining.
The picture shown above is basically like my dream wedding. I'm actually being serious on this one. It was only today that i realised that i would love a wedding on the beach, i mean just look at it. The waves sounding and crashing upon the shore. The nice hot beach between your toes and the sunset within the horizon i mean that sounds so beautiful. But i don't have a boyfriend so i can't really think about that at the moment. But a girl can dream eh?
Reffering to my topic of wedding dresses, as i saw the picture of the beach wedding i got so happy and excited about wedding dresses and i started looking for some in particular for beach wear. They looked so lovely and they were on sale aswell *jumps excitedly* but again i don't have a boyfriend. This is such an occurring problem *laughs*.
As i was getting ready to sleep i started to think about my recent boyfriend and how we were once so in love. We were so much in love that we were planning for our honeymoon and he even gave me a ring which i loved so very much. It had only been about 3 months but i did love every single bit of it. I remember he once came to my house and we danced to my favourite song which always makes me cry and he held me. Eventhough we don't talk now due to silly reasons i won't forget him. He taught me to love like you have nothing left to lose. And to be patient which was a good thing. He was funny, charming and kind a real gentleman. I had him and he had me and that was all that mattered and at that moment in time when we were together i never felt so loved in my entire life.
Non-existence- I feel that love may not exist, i know yes i'm only 18 years old but still. I have loved 3 people in my life time. Two of which i knew loved me and the other not so much, but i still loved him regardless of everything and everyone. I know it is bad for me to say but my mind is starting to sway on that thought of love not really existing. "Love exists in God, as God is Love." But apart from that i don't feel that love can truly co-inhibit between two people. Not really. Call me narrow minded or naive but it's just my opinion. I could talk about this subject for a good while but i think i'll stop there until a next time.
Heres a video which explains my feelings and i just overall love this tearful song. Hope you enjoy
Santana xox
