There was once a guy that I liked so much and he used to work in a supermarket. I think he liked me aswell and we kept flirting and looking at each other. I remember like it was yesterday but this happened last year. I decided that i didn't want to keep looking, i wanted to say something. Maybe he's shy, but I'm gonna take a chance what do i have to lose?
So i did. I built enough courage to talk to him. I went back to the place where he worked but he was gone. I never saw him again. I was so devastated. I blamed myself for not doing something sooner, i mean maybe if i said something. Why did i have to be so shy? One of the things i dislike about myself is that i can be shy, but when i start talking i'll open up. I'm quite a reserved person and keep myself to myself.
I thought i saw him again on a bus, the guy looked at me and my heart raced but i don't think it was him as he looked away.
I feel like i missed an opportunity, an opportunity to be with someone who might be lost just like me, but our souls just happen to meet and then we fit like pieces of a puzzle. I don't know if i make sense but hopefully you get the picture..
I don't know if i'll ever see him again. Probably it wasn't meant to be. But from that day i made sure to always try to seize every opportunity that i could get. I don't want to miss out on anything. For me i feel that i can't lose. What do i have to lose?
For that i feel the answer could be both nothing and everything.
Santana xox
