The Merry-go-round

So i was just watching some Youtube videos and i saw a merry go round and it made me pretty sad. I'm honestly afraid of merry go rounds. I'm not sure what it is, but i think the moving of the animals or horses or whatever, mixed with the spinning motion is abit too scary. The music is nice, but i always feel sad when i see children riding it, because it reminds me how scary it seems. Maybe its because of clowns. I don't like clowns. They are honestly SO Frightening. I saw one at my local train station, not just one but five clowns and they were all walking towards me to get to the platform to the train and i wanted to burst out crying but had to hold my act together because i was in public lol
So yeah it might be related somehow i dunno..

Anyway, am i the only one with this fear? Fear of merry go rounds that is.

I'm afraid of roller coasters but this is on a different level of scary..

I would insert a picture, but even seeing it scares me.. so instead i'll put

*Inserts merry go round picture*

Night everyone!

Santana.

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Youtube and Fifty shades of Grey mix

Hey you guys, so i haven't done a post in over a month now. I've had numerous amounts of exams at my university and i got the results yesterday...
I PASSED! YAY! i passed all 3 main units with 2-3 exams in each. So i'm very happy about that. Thank God.
However i do have a few more exams to complete but thought to blog about this since i've been absent on here.

In other news, i've managed to post a video on my youtube channel a "Whats in my bag tag" So i hope you guys check that out. I'll hopefully be doing an Outfit of the day or something fashion related soon. I just enjoy posting videos which is fun. Watch this space!

I've also been reading this book called "Fifty shades of grey" by E.L James. The blurb instantly drew my attention as it seemed mysterious and i love romance books. However i was suprised when it turned out differently. I haven't finished reading the book yet, but when i do i'll give my verdict.

I hope you guys are all well.
Take Care
Santana xoxo

Link for my "Whats in my bag tag". Subcribe, comment and like
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Not the normal post, but just a thought one

I'm sitting here and I'm thinking about him. 

There was once a guy that I liked so much and he used to work in a supermarket. I think he liked me aswell and we kept flirting and looking at each other. I remember like it was yesterday but this happened last year. I decided that i didn't want to keep looking, i wanted to say something. Maybe he's shy, but I'm gonna take a chance what do i have to lose?

So i did. I built enough courage to talk to him. I went back to the place where he worked but he was gone. I never saw him again. I was so devastated. I blamed myself for not doing something sooner, i mean maybe if i said something. Why did i have to be so shy? One of the things i dislike about myself is that i can be shy, but when i start talking i'll open up. I'm quite a reserved person and keep myself to myself.

I thought i saw him again on a bus, the guy looked at me and my heart raced but i don't think it was him as he looked away.

I feel like i missed an opportunity, an opportunity to be with someone who might be lost just like me, but our souls just happen to meet and then we fit like pieces of a puzzle. I don't know if i make sense but hopefully you get the picture..

I don't know if i'll ever see him again. Probably it wasn't meant to be. But from that day i made sure to always try to seize every opportunity that i could get. I don't want to miss out on anything. For me i feel that i can't lose. What do i have to lose?

For that i feel the answer could be both nothing and everything.

Santana xox